stubborn

hmm.. first of all, i'm going to blog about this song i wrote. well, it's unfinished, and i do not plan to finish it anymore.. and it sucks. i'm not good at writing songs. but this is one of the songs i wrote for karen, and she never heard it.. and i guess she never will.. i hope writing about this would finally help me to move on.. so here it is. the title's "stubborn"

tried to hide it all with a smile,
thinking it would only take a while.
but i guess i'm just too stubborn
to let go of you..

tried to act normal and be a friend
but this isn't the way it's supposed to end.
i guess i'm just too stubborn
to let go of you..

yeah, i tried, i tried.
but i can't stop thinking of you..
yeah, i lied, i lied.
i never got over you.

Everything will be okay,
as long as you agree to stay.
I may not be a dream-come-true
but surely i'm the one for you.

tried everything to ease the pain
but without you, it's just not the same.
yeah i know i'm stubborn.
and i won't let go of you.

everything will be okay,
as long as you agree to stay.
I may not be a dream-come-true.
but you're the one. and i Love you.


that's it. haha. told you it sucked. hmm.. but anyway, hope this helps me in some way. please don't hesitate to comment. if you hate it, tell me. i won't get mad. please be honest in commenting. like i said before, criticism is always welcome here. x]

please

to all the readers: (if i have any.. xD)

recently, a friend of mine, mottie santos, is going through something that some of us, including me, have also faced. her grandfather is in the ICU (intensive care unit). I can relate to her, because nine years ago (actually eight years and ten months) i lost my dad. then six years later, my grandfather died. i understand what it feels like to lose someone close to you, espeically a family member. I remember the first day after my grandfather died. i lost the two 'fathers' that i had. the moment i saw his body on a long white coffin, i burst into tears.. and even until now, from time to time, i remember them, and i cry all night long. (i'm man enough to admit it..) so i know what it feels like, and to my friend mottie: stay strong. he'll make it. :)

now to all the readers: please do pray for mottie's grandfather. and please also include all the sick and dying from all over the world. who knows? it may only take one prayer to save a life.. :)

3/30/09

when boredom knocks at my door, i take a big axe and slice it into pieces. hahaha. let me rephrase that. when i'm bored, i find something to do... and it seems that i found myself blogging again.. well, like i said in my previous post, i lost my dear videocard.. so all i can do is blog, check my friendster, check my facebook and look at youtube videos. soooooooooooooooooooooooooo here i am again.. hmmm.. what should i write about today? or should i say "type about"? hahaha. anyway, hmm.. i finished my clearance today. hahaha. yes that's a good thing. better late than never i suppose.. uhmm.. okay i've got nothing else to say, so i'm just gonna remind the readers to please do comment on my posts.. criticism is always welcome here on my blog. :)

damn.

okay, a few hours ago i reformatted my computer cuz my antivirus guard detected a virus. but as usual, i act before i think, so i forgot that i lost the installers for all my drivers. hahahahahaha. now i can't use my video card. and as all of you may know, i am ADDICTED to computer games, and without a video card, my computer's practically worthless... and so im stuck here blogging about my boring day-to-day battles with life. well, first of all, i want to play basketball, but i don't own a court, and the public court down by the church is swarming with guys who won't let me and my friends play. and so with that crossed out of my list, the second thing i want to do is to go out. have some fun. but i can't. why? IT'S SUMMER. and we all know what that means. NO BAON. tsk tsk.. i should have failed the removal so that i could go to summer school and still have my daily allowance.. LOL. i'm kidding. Well, the next thing on my list is to go to my buddy james' house. why? four high-tech computers with ultra-fast internet connection. I don't know a gamer who wouldn't marvel at that. but i'm going tomorrow, so that still leaves me with nothing to do today. hmmm.. how about if i sing? okay. it's settled then.. i'm gonna sing.

*ahem* (clears throat)


can you feel that?... oh shit.. ow-a-a-a-a. owa-a-a-a.
get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
open up your hate and let it flow into me.

get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
you mother get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
you fucker get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
open up your hate and let it flow into me.

i can see inside you the sickness is rising..
it seems that all that is good has died.
oh no, the world is a scary place.
now that you've woken up the demon in me.

(bobby? will you give it to me?)
owa-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a-a.

get up, c'mon get down with the sickness!
you mother get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
you fucker get up, c'mon get down with the sickness.
madness is the gift that has been given to me.

why can't you just fuck up and die
and get down with the sickness!
FUCK YOU i don't need this shit
i'm down with the sickness
you stupid, sadistic, abusive fucking whore
get down with the sickness!

here it comes!...
get ready to die!
get ready to... DIE!

*END* x]]

well? how was my singing? HAHAHAHAHA. okay that totally killed the boredom. HAHAHA. oh, if you guys liked the song, it's Richard Cheese - Down with the Sickness. :))

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as some of you may know, this upcoming schoolyear, i'll be a senior. most of my batchmates have already chosen a college course to take. not me. through my 15 years of living, i have never had a steady plan for my future. when i was about 10 years old, i wanted to be a professional basketball player, but we all know it's just a childhood dream. i could never be a professional basketball player. so then i started to plan for a more realistic job for me, and so, at that time, i decided that i would become a nurse. ofcourse, becoming a nurse would surely make me rich. but as time passed i realized that picking a job is not all about the money. and so, i racked my brain up for a job that i would enjoy and a job that can support my future family. so far, my goal is to become a writer. yes, i want to write books and novels and stuff. but again, as time passed, i realized that my vocabulary is way too low for a writer and i still have a few errors in my grammar. but i will not give up. people, even writers, aren't born with the ability to speak in english right? it's acquired knowledge. therefore i will study hard and hopefully, i can achieve my dream of becoming a writer.